Hmm..I must talk about a few things. I hope no one holds anything I say here against me,it's just somethings that must be talked about.

First of all..Yesterday,Josh wakes me up..And then I ended up falling back asleep,well I woke back up later thinking he was gone,and watched some TV,and go in the kitchen,and there he is..Sitting with my grandma drinking coffee. So then my grandma suggests we play cards,so we do..And Missy comes,and then Josh leaves and Patrick comes over. And then Tiffany,so then me,Missy,Patrick,and Tiffany play cards. And then Missy and Tiff leave,and Patrick stays until FUCKING 12,So finally when he leaves,I think I finally have some alone time,but no..Missy comes back and stays until about 7am. I just kind of spent the day without human contact. Except for when I went to my aunts..And it was pretty nice just to chill today.

So I got online earlier,let me explain something to you..I don't trust people that I meet online as it is,because of this bad experience I had.

But this person,that i've known online for probably about a year..And all this time I thought it was a gay dude,but he comes out today and tells me she's really a girl. Alright? So she shows me this myspace and tells me it's her. And I was pretty shocked to tell you the truth..But i'm kind of pissed off in a way. I'm sure i'll get over it..But let me be truthful..I'm honestly more shocked at the fact that i'm like the only one who isn't really "okay" with it. What about Stevie? Didn't we give Stevie so much shit because we all think he's fake? But another person comes out and says "I'm not really a homosexual guy..I'm actually a straight girl" and you can just be like "Oh,that's cool" When all this time she's been a lying fake.

Not only that..It kind of makes you wonder. Who else is lying. Anyone really can be. It's almost too easy.

I think i'm gonna stop chating with some people,I might make a new screen name and only give it to my real life friends,and close online friends.

I might go back to school,for a few reasons.
1. I'm bored as fuck.
2. All I do is sleep while people are at school anyway.
3. What can it hurt? If I don't do well,I can always just give up and get my GED.
4. I need to find a new boyfriend,and as of now..School may be the only place to find one.

Or maybe I should just get a job..Decisions,decisions.

So..wtf..

I've lost 9 lbs so far.

And everything I eat seems to be making me sick. Like sometimes..I throw up on purpose,just to prevent getting sick later on. But tonight,man..It was horrible.

Ugh,my back hurts. I keep getting sick. Sleeping isn't helping.

I feel so alone..

I used to be pretty. I had lost of friends and I was happy.

What happened

I went and hung out with my old friends today. They were all..
"Omg,you look different"  "You look like you lost alot of weight"  "Your hair is getting really long"   "Your tan now"  "Cool you got your nose peirced"  "I haven't seen you in 15 fucking years"

Heather's moving to Tennessee. =/

Tiffany and Justin Parsons are "talking".

I'm high.

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